Staying Behind

I want to be with my friends!  I keep getting messages of different friends packing, and hitting the road (or airport) to take them to this years Christian Game Developers Conference in Portland, Oregon.  One friend even posted videos of her family driving through landmarks on the way there, rejoicing that they were almost  in […]

Controlling Anger

There is a person in my life that I must be around daily.  He is not an easy person to be around.  Some days there is peace and a certain camaraderie.  Other days there is a sense of walking on egg shells, trying not to take offense.  And then there are the days that everything […]

A Wellness Checkup

I went for my six months wellness checkup at Scott and White in Temple today.  Boy, do they ask different interview questions:  Do I feel safe at home?  Are others afraid to ride with me as I drive?  Does anyone at home act aggressively with me? These seemed to be standard questions S0cial Security asks […]

Importance of Support

It’s hard to tackle a task by oneself.  But add a friend or two, even though they might  just be observers, and the job gets much lighter.  If I am going through a difficult emotional struggle, having a friend to come along side of me and say, “I understand. I see what you are trying […]

Coming Alive

I’m experiencing a new feeling lately, of actually doing the things I am supposed to do each day.  Am I having perfect days?  Not hardly.  I’m just as imperfect as I’ve always been, so what’s different? I’m not escaping.  Escaping into food, escaping into TV, escaping into a safe place in my mind.  I’m showing […]

Much Welcome Rain

It was a wet day today.  I got rained on and got very wet.  I got caught over at my grandson’s house when it started sprinkling.  Never trust a few sprinkles in Texas.  I got under a tree until the few sprinkles passed.  They turned into a deluge, and I was forced to make a […]

Hiding Out

What have I been doing to myself?  Hiding out from myself and the world?  I watched my son hide out for 20 years, hide out from situations in his life he didn’t want to deal with.  I was patient with him, ignoring others who said he would never get functional beyond the tasks that demanded […]

Longing for Family

Yesterday was the Fourth of July.  When I awoke I realized no one would probably be coming to work, so I tried to plan my day accordingly.  The usual household chores and getting some extra rest was on the list.  I would have liked to plan a gathering with my family but they have about […]

Tiring Day

The day started off with my being super tired.  I didn’t get to sleep until late.  I thought I had to get so many things done last night, ending the night with washing my hair and going to bed with it wet.  Silly girl, I didn’t have to have clean hair to see the doctor, […]

Grocery Shopping

I went grocery shopping this afternoon and brought home several new food products.  Lots of frozen veggies that can be microwaved in the sack…how marvelous!  I don’t even have to wash the pans. I found the Greek, no-fat yogurt, and after tasting it at home, found it was pretty good.  I have plans to stir […]

Freedom from Guilt

I had a pretty good day.  I helped my grandson, Tommy, do some yard work in exchange for some rocks he wanted to get rid of.  I took the rocks (slightly burned from a burn pit) to my yard and circled them around my septic tank. My husband has been afraid people will run or […]

The First Day

Well, I staggered through my first day of healthier living.  I don’t know exactly what to call it.  Diet doesn’t work because that sounds negative and a good way to set myself up for failure. I had great plans for today.  I had my work schedule already in my mind when I went to sleep […]