Under His Wings

Have you ever had a vague “knowing” floating around in your mind, on the verge of self discovery, but couldn’t quite put it to cognitive understanding or into words?  I’ve been wrestling with that feeling for several weeks now, and the quest is slowly forming into recognition of something new for me. It started when […]

Staying Behind

I want to be with my friends!  I keep getting messages of different friends packing, and hitting the road (or airport) to take them to this years Christian Game Developers Conference in Portland, Oregon.  One friend even posted videos of her family driving through landmarks on the way there, rejoicing that they were almost  in […]

Coming Alive

I’m experiencing a new feeling lately, of actually doing the things I am supposed to do each day.  Am I having perfect days?  Not hardly.  I’m just as imperfect as I’ve always been, so what’s different? I’m not escaping.  Escaping into food, escaping into TV, escaping into a safe place in my mind.  I’m showing […]

Hiding Out

What have I been doing to myself?  Hiding out from myself and the world?  I watched my son hide out for 20 years, hide out from situations in his life he didn’t want to deal with.  I was patient with him, ignoring others who said he would never get functional beyond the tasks that demanded […]

Longing for Family

Yesterday was the Fourth of July.  When I awoke I realized no one would probably be coming to work, so I tried to plan my day accordingly.  The usual household chores and getting some extra rest was on the list.  I would have liked to plan a gathering with my family but they have about […]

Tiring Day

The day started off with my being super tired.  I didn’t get to sleep until late.  I thought I had to get so many things done last night, ending the night with washing my hair and going to bed with it wet.  Silly girl, I didn’t have to have clean hair to see the doctor, […]

Grocery Shopping

I went grocery shopping this afternoon and brought home several new food products.  Lots of frozen veggies that can be microwaved in the sack…how marvelous!  I don’t even have to wash the pans. I found the Greek, no-fat yogurt, and after tasting it at home, found it was pretty good.  I have plans to stir […]