As I go about fund raising for the open-air venue to be created by renovating an old dilapidated Victorian house, each step of the way is being achieved almost miraculously as material and labor comes in daily. If I had not had so many closed doors and near failures in the past, I would be feeling pretty high right now, thinking I was a wonderful businesswoman. But I know the truth. When a person agrees to be led of the Lord, closed doors stay closed, partially opened doors need a little more discussion with Him to get it right, and open doors are from His provisions flooding in. That’s the way it works. He is in control. And that is as it should be. There would be nothing worse than a monument to human ingenuity that is empty of purpose and achievement for the kingdom of God.
My scripture reading tonight was in Matthew 23:27: “Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of the bones of the dead and everything unclean. In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness.”
I am learning the words to say (public relations jargon) to make a good impression and to promote generosity from the people with whom I come in contact. But I must daily open my heart for God to examine, and ask myself, “Have I been honest? Have I presented the full picture? Do I really need this (request)? Will I be a good steward with it? Have I presented myself with character traits like those of Jesus? Will I follow up with words of gratitude to the person and to God?”
When I do this and He proclaims me with a clean heart, I feel I have one of the most satisfying jobs in the whole world. He is allowing me to tag along behind Him, helping Him do His work. What an apprenticeship!