Waiting

It seems I have been waiting my whole life.  Waiting to grow up, graduate, and leave home.   Waiting for the right man to come along and sweep me off my feet.  Waiting those long months to have a baby.  Waiting to finish college.  I have not always waited well.  I have stressed, groaned and wrestled with God over waiting.  Yet waiting has helped perfect patience.  Oh, did I just say that?  (I try to never say I am achieving patience lest I get some more tribulation to make it grow!)  But seriously, time spent anticipating an event does help a person work out the details and appreciate it more.

Staying the same and repeating the same things each day would be boring, I would think.  We need goals to propel us into the future, and get us ready for change. Change can mean growth and new challenges.  There is a wealth of information, experiences to be had, people to meet, ideas to be exchanged all around us.  I have heard the term “living on the edge.”  I’m not totally sure what it means, but I have an idea that living on the edge is to be vibrant, fully alive, with hope cursing through our veins.  Awaiting seems to be an oxymoron to that state, yet it might take the more sedate times to prepare us for the exhilarating ones.  I know children have their growth spurts.  They may even gain some weight storing energy while they keep the same height, until within a short time they seem to grow a foot taller.  I have found change in my life happens fast and sometimes unexpectedly like those growth spurts in children.

Scriptures give us mixed messages.  “Don’t worry about what tomorrow will bring, tomorrow will worry about itself…  Be content…  Those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength, they will mount up with wings like an eagle…  Without hope people perish.”  Could this mean we need roots in the past, identity (living) in the present, and eyes toward the future?  The Christian experience is built on the hope of a better tomorrow in this world and in the resurrection.

My tendency is to say. “Hurry up. Lord,”  but the best way for that to happen might be to live today well.